A Paradise So Rare

Never will compare to your paradise.

An Angel In Disguise

Look inside your heart, they will see how pure you were.  The innocence on your face shines like a star around you.  You grew up and old with love surrounding you.  The love that we feel for you is no doubt the strongest of all.  Loving you  just the way you were.  An angel in disguise on earth.

 

rest children..he's in a better place now

I hate seeing Michael's kids crying.  I want to embrace them and wish i can help them heal.

 A crying flower with petals wet from tears,   Needs a sun to dry them with ease, When mornings come and smiles surround it, Tears disappear and love it will meet.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

you are a distant memory

I chat to fan-friend. I felt her pain. she got carried away by the wine that she drank and i cried from her loneliness. Michael, i understand her feeling, because we have the same flow of thoughts for you. right now, i drank too a little which i've long been wanting to do the moment i knew you passed. i kept it inside alone..without anybody knowing it. I want to release every pain that i have here. Michael..there's no color now. especially when i hear your voice, every pain of yours and your passing come back to me. there's no fear of passing since you left. you're all inside of me. Ive been wanting to release the hurt and pain but there was nobody here to listen. it was like my world was the only planet in the universe. i felt so all alone. then i found a friend online who took care of me. she understood every pain i had from your passing. I thank God for sending her to me. she was my angel who rescued me. Now, i feel lighter, but the pain still resides. i talked and shared my feelings to my filipina friends...was relieved. but when i came homea, the same old feeling came back to me. i wish you are still here. i didn't expect you were to go, because i was just beginning to know you. One month, Michael. It was so short. I know creations fade and go, but i was just starting. i was not even in the first step. I was just viewing you from afar, seeing you standing in brightness. I came nearer to have a good look at that brightness that i saw that amazed me, when suddenly, you disappeared. I was astound feeling so left behind. The joy that i had for a very short time remained in me and hunted me to the point of risking every dangerous path just to see you once more. I know it didn't happen. it's just a metaphor,a kind of thought that means so deep for the user to express the depth of the desire to express the feeling.

I love you so much, Michael. For me, you just stepped on my door, waved at me, and then disappeared like a sud. I saw you once and watched your magic--it's all i could remember. I was amazed by it. Then forgot because there was no you in my place. Until i knew you last year and was surprised to know you were the one i admired and looked for in vain.

Now, you're gone..and i'm still here looking for you..for the continuation of the glimpse that i had on you. I on't know when i would end searching for your future--for the things which i supposed to have seen had you didn't pass. I don't know when i would finish walking on that path where you should have walked on. It's like a never ending search for nothing.

We love you so much our angel, our hero

You once shone like no other,
Loved like no other,
Sang like no other,
Danced like no other,
Smiled like no other,
Laughed like no other,
Charmed us like no one did,
Made us cry like no one did,
Paved the way to unity like no one did,
Was hurt like no one had felt,
Got sad like no one had felt,
Loved like no one received,
Desired like no one received,
Fantasized more than others had been,
Held our breath with stunning loveliness,
Made us fall in love and loved no less.
The only guy we knew who shone so bright,
The charisma you possessed wounded our lower lip,
From the emotion restrained,
Just inside they were kept.
So lovely to look at...
So adorable like a god,
The way you made us feel,
And still making us feel,
Is perfect as the dark of the night,
When hearts tend to fall in love.more »

You are still my song...
You are still my smile,
The thunder inside my chest,
That lives in my dream at night.
You are the loveliest lyrics
That i find so rare,
That only the softest and sweetest
Voice of a bird has the right to sing.

I love you.

 

God is L O V E

Always believe in Him.  He loves us whatever we are.

I have read it from my brother who was living with his family for around 15 years now. for 7 months, he lsot his job until now. It went like this:

"Sis,

Kadarating ko lang sa bahay at nag-iinit ako ng tatanghalian ko nang buksan ko ang TV (meron dito sa eat-in-kitchen) at naka tuned-in sa 700 Club hosted by Connie Reyes Mumar and a guy I do not know but looks familiar. There was a lady being featured, an architect, who turned and prayed to God to find her the right way and asked to develop her talent further and to lead her to the right direction in her profession. Now she has her own business as a landscape architect with big companies as her clients, at a young age. Then the hosts prayed and while praying, I laid my right hand on the TV screen and closed my eyes. After the prayer I sat, while about to start eating, Connie mentioned that there are viewers, as if she knows they are watching, like women who suffer from cyst, ovarian cancer, etc. illnesses, and said they are cured, as well as other viewers who need pray-overs. TAKE NOTE of this: I was carried over, then she said there is somebody out there who lost his job and just staring at the TV screen who seems to lose hope and crying. She also said "let it be, there's nothing wrong with crying, and don't worry, you'll have one soon with a much better salary. You will hear about it tomorrow." I burst in tears as if she is talking to me because the scenario is, I may say, exactly as mine.

As if the Lord is here with me, or a coincidence, when I turned on the TV...the channel (TFC), the program and the exact situation I am with.

I can't help writing you this email which I did as soon as I finished my lunch. Who would not believe? Ask you to pray for me".

I cried instantly while sharing it with my two children because i have felt how he felt during that moment.  It was what i wanted to experience--seeing myself in that situation where the healer/host was pointing out on someone, knowing him/her on that very moment.  They had clairvoyance, spiritually.  For many years, i 've been waiting in front of my tv to be one of those touched by God's grace. i know i receive His blessing and all of us everyday, in different forms.  This said situation of my brother rarely comes.

In these trying, hard times of our lives, sharing like this one give us hope.  God always sees us.

May His blessings be felt on earth.

Your happiest day

 Happy birthday, our angel, my baby.  I wish that you celebrate it in Heaven.  All of us want to send you our  love and best wishes though you're not here.  Please always remember that we always do love you.  We remember you, our hero.  Love always, your loving fans